These are the songs of my life. The epitome of me.
I moved to California seven years ago, pretty much out on a whim. West Hollywood, Santa Ana, Costa Mesa, Newport Beach, west Los Angeles, Santa Monica, Culver City, and now I'm crossing my fingers for Venice. Throughout these journeys I've met what I like to call "the reflections of me at that moment." Both good and bad qualities of myself projected upon others who reciprocated the same mirror. I've won and lost. I've conquered and failed. I've loved. I've played. I've used. I've abused. I was careless and caring. I was mindful and mindless. I've trusted and broke promises. I was selfish, immature, loving, sporadic, emotional, and in the better side of being reckless. Too many times. But the very most I kept up was whole heartedly LOVE and love devotedly and carefully with every action and decision.
That has brought me here, to who I am this very moment. A person that is looking through the stained glass window and is attempting to see every color and see them as they are and as who I am observing through them. With the realization that those colors change constantly with the light or lack of light.
Life is weird. You have to become a person that is flexible where you can transform with the changes of life's challenges and opportunities. You have everything you need inside. Everybody else is just extra to compliment and challenge what you have.
So here I am as I am, nothing less but always more. There will always be a mystery because that is life, unknown and a cycle, and I am just trying to figure it all out. Be with me or be without me, but I will always be. Grateful.
I believe I will soon be leaving California.
© Katography 2013